A Guide Who's Walked Through The Fire

I'm not going to pretend I came to spiritual guidance through some peaceful, enlightened path.

The truth? I was dragged here kicking and screaming.

For nearly two decades, I built a successful career as a copywriter in the advertising world. I was good at my job: crafting campaigns, shaping brands, helping others sell their dreams. But somewhere along the way, my own soul got buried under client briefs, endless deadlines, and the quiet ache of knowing I was serving a system that no longer felt true to me.

Then one night, everything changed.

I stumbled across a video of someone sharing their near-death experience. Something in me paused. That video sent me down a rabbit hole that would completely shatter everything I thought I knew about God, reality, and myself.

What followed was nearly a year of what felt like complete dissolution. What mystics call the Dark Night of the Soul.

My identity, my relationships, my faith, my entire sense of self... one by one, they fell away. Friends pulled back. Family didn't understand. I felt like I was losing my mind, suspended between the person I used to be and a truth I was desperately trying to find.

I tried everything the spiritual community suggested. I meditated. I read the books. I followed the influencers. But most of the advice felt hollow when I was barely functional, sobbing on my floor at 3am, wondering if I'd permanently broken something inside myself.

What I Discovered Changed Everything

Through extensive research, consultation with therapists, and connection with others who had walked this path, I discovered something crucial:

Spiritual awakening isn't meant to destroy you. But without proper guidance, it absolutely can.

The terror, the isolation, the feeling of going crazy: these are documented stages of a process humans have been experiencing for thousands of years. There are maps for this journey. There are tools that actually work. And there are ways to navigate it without losing everything.

More importantly, I learned that the generic spiritual advice fails because it ignores the very real psychological and relational challenges that come with awakening. You can't just "trust the process" when you're in crisis. You need practical tools. You need to understand what's happening. You need someone who's been through it to show you that you're not alone and that there's a way through.

My Approach To Spiritual Guidance

I bring together two decades of professional experience with the hard-won wisdom of my own spiritual transformation. My approach is:

Practical over theoretical. You won't get flowery spiritual platitudes from me. You'll get concrete tools you can use today, even when you're barely functioning.

Psychologically informed. True awakening requires both spiritual understanding AND psychological awareness. We can't bypass the human experience on our way to enlightenment.

Grounded in real experience. I'm not speaking from books or training programs. I'm sharing what actually worked during my darkest moments and what I've seen work for hundreds of others.

Accessible and affordable. No one should suffer alone because of financial barriers. Spiritual guidance shouldn't be a luxury reserved for those who can afford expensive programs.

Honest about the hard parts. Awakening isn't all bliss and light. It's messy. It hurts. It's confusing. And that's okay. I won't pretend otherwise.

My Mission

I create resources for people who feel lost, isolated, and misunderstood during their spiritual transformation, especially those experiencing what feels like complete identity dissolution.

My goal is simple: to be the guide I desperately needed during my darkest nights. To provide the practical support, psychological grounding, and spiritual wisdom that mainstream resources fail to offer. To help you understand that you're not crazy, you're not broken, and you're not alone.

Whether you're just beginning to question everything you thought you knew, deep in the chaos of ego death, or trying to rebuild your life after awakening, I'm here to help you navigate this territory with less suffering and more clarity.

You don't have to do this alone.

This path is sacred, but it doesn't have to be lonely. And it definitely doesn't have to destroy you.

Welcome. I'm glad you're here.

Alina Cross

If you're currently in spiritual crisis and need support, explore my resources to find practical guidance for wherever you are on your journey.